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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 00:04

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

All the time i was locked up.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

We were not on the streets..

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Why do women need to wear bras, in spite of the fact that the breasts are an integral part of the body?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I was scared of men, in general

But it wasn’t much.

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I write beautiful poetry .

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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I said to her

She married twice! .

So, i spoilt her more .

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He knew the spot.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Would this be the day?

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I was very sick at this time too.

She loved him until the end.

I could never make a relationship work though!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Especially a lifetime of it.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Comes on , in middle age.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

So whats the point in blame.

I was 9 years of age.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I never cut or harmed myself..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She found it foreign!.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im still living with it.

One cannot live in the past .

I will be 64.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

This is soul school!.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But, we were locked up after school.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

When she asked me how she looked .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Who then, do I blame.?

I waited trembling.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Put me off passion for life!!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I have no regrets .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He resisted the act ,that day.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And i lived it daily.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Was to survive, this bastard.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I think the readers, may guess!

Ive learnt so much.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Why did i forgive my father ?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

We all went to grammer schools

She was in good health!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was seconnd youngest,

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She wouldn,t have been !

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My life is so biszare .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

As i do to all so called friends.?

What did i know ?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I don,t even have a pension.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

(And it was in our own minds.)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

It was going to be , some day.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The only rule us 5 kids had .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My family never makes their pension either.